Sensory Meditation 

Guitar 

Singing

Chakra Awakening

Morning Celebration

Playful Feet Greeting one another

Freedom in movement

Letting Go

Waking Up

Sharing Love

Feeling the pulse of another’s heart beating under my hand..... CRACKING open my OWN heart.......

Feeling The Pulse of my own HEART BEATING.... it took some time.... I thought I might be dead... there was NOTHING for a long time.... untill I allowed my heart to soften and FEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLL the pain, tears, love.... My heart partner “there for me”.... “supporting” me........

Hiking JOYFULLLY, PLAYFULLY

GET NAKED was the theme for the day... we decided that brought a BIGGER smile than saying CHEEZE..... Try it... see how the photos turn out?????

Surprise invitaion to DANCE AND SING in community....

BEAUTIFULL people

BEAUTIFUL inspiration ending with my heart once again BREAKING OPEN AND FLOWING FREELY along to the song of KIND AND GENEROUS

MEMORIES of the LOVE and GENEROSITY of soooo many loved ones along my life path.....The FLOW of LIFE when my heart is open and accepting.....



"Kind & Generous"

You've been so kind and generous

I don't know how you keep on giving

For your kindness I'm in debt to you

For your selflessness, my admiration

And for everything you've done 

You know I'm bound... 

I'm bound to thank you for it 

You've been so kind and generous

I don't know how you keep on giving

For your kindness I'm in debt to you

And I never could have come this far without you

So for everything you've done 

You know I'm bound... 

I'm bound to thank you for it 


I want to thank you

For so many gifts

You gave with love and tenderness

I want to thank you 

I want to thank you

For your generosity

The love and the honesty

That you gave me 


I want to thank you

Show my gratitude

My love and my respect for you

I want to thank you 

I want to... 

Thank you

Thank you

Thank you

Thank you

Thank you

Thank you

My Giraffe and Jackal expressed non-verbally through art......

I had the opportunity to choose object from nature and glue them onto a piece of cardboard.......

What the different objects represent to me......

My JUDGMENTAL JACKEL chose a dried cabbage leaf....

When I first moved to NZ I invited an old time naturalist to visit my land and help educate me in regards to the native verses non native trees and plants..

I told Jack.. “I’m going to cut down those cabbage trees.. I think they are ugly”

Jack said... “When you come to LOVE the cabbage tree you will be a TRUE KIWI”

Welllllllll.... I must now be a TRUE KIWI... I have come to love the cabbage tree.... 

I collect the “fronds” bundle them up and tie them together and use as kindling to start a fire....

I LOVE the SWEET gentle smell of the blossoms....

The old Cabbage trees are NARLEY and multi facetted... many branches, extremely interesting to look at.

I chose LOVE IN A MIST to represent LOVE.....

It is the sweetest light blue flower surrounded in light misty feathery softness. It is one of my favorite flowers... it is FRAGILE. It has a PROTECTIVE shell that holds the seeds of the future flower. The “Shell” protects the young seeds, holds them until they dried out and are ready to be exposed then released into the world.

I chose a DEAD, Shriveled up, OLD, small Maple Leaf.......

It represented the scarred, scared, almost dead part of my self that I have been dried out.... close to death...contracted....held tight.... It is a reminder to me that I have a chose in each moment... choose FEAR and close up to defend myself or OPEN MY HEART, expose my vulnerability, ASK questions, be willing to receive, BE OPEN, RECEPTIVE, LISTEN.. expose my true colors, my feelings.....BE LIGHT.

I chose the beautiful leaf to represent the DEEP BEAUTY, MULTI FACETTED parts of myself that are ALSO FLAWED= IMPERFECT no matter how beautiful.....

I chose the fennel to represent the PATH OF NVC........

There are bumps and challenges along the way, many choices on which way to go..AND the path is SOFT and GENTEL, sweet smelling and GIVING.....LOVE IS ALL I NEED< LOVE IS ALL I NEED< LOVE IS ALL I NEED......

I chose Purple, red, yellow and orange flower petals to represent JOY, LOVE, SACREDNESS, and ECSTATIC BLISS.... I will attempt to always scatter and share my JOY,LOVE, SACREDNESS and ECSTATIC BLISS.... 

I chose a prickly DEAD plant to represent the defenses we all put up to protect ourselves.

I will attempt to be aware when my own prickly shit comes up and know that it is probably an attempt to PROTECT and DEFEND our young, innocent, vulnerable side... I will be gentle with others and myself when I notice this prickly, harshness......I endeavor to be AWARE AND TAKE CARE OF OLD WOUNDS within myself and others...... There are STILL TO THIS DAY scars from old injuries..... physical, spiritual and emotional scars that are healed to certain degrees.. some are Gnarly, BIG, obvious scars.. some are smaller and still raw and pussy... The memory of the old injury is in the muscle tissue.. imbedded in the body memory... REMEMBER... LOVE IS ALL I NEED< LOVE IS ALL I NEED...Love and gentle care, tenderness, coaxing the old hurt....Can I see the beauty in it?? What is underneath, immeshed with in the scar??? CAN I LOOK DEEPER?? look at the texture? find something LIGHT? Courageous, can I find Empathy? A wise knowing learned from the experience???

I chose a long, straight stick to remind me that I need to be PATIENT with myself and others... The road is long- Take a BREAK and rest along the way when needed, pace myself, go lightly........

The end of one chapter... a START of a new one... 3 weeks at Esalen before going back “home” to NZ......





Discombobulation

Living out of my Car

NO HOME

UNKNOWN FUTURE

FEAR

EXCITEMENT

Anticipation???

Confusion

unorganization

COMPLETION

UNFINISHED bussiness

Completed bussiness

HEART ACHE

SADNESS

Excitement

HOPE

Four nights at Esalen.... I FORGOT about the 24/7 sound of the OCEAN,,, the never ending ROAR of the sea....Soooo Soothing, comforting, consitant, the sound of a clock ticking, heart beating, creek running.......I didn't even REMEMBER how much I missed it... until I heard it again.

MY PEOPLE

MY TRIBE

HY SPIRITUAL place on this earth....

Surrounded with other like minded people.....

Priorities

Stopping work each day to “CHECK IN” do a “Weather Report”, “Process” see how we are each doing? how were FEELING in our Bodies? Minds? Spirits??? Does anyone need support of any kind?? Are they tiered? need time alone? NO guessing NO making up a story?? nothing hidden behind... “HOW ARE YOU” ...”FINE” and “YOU????” It’s REALLLLLL..... “My uncle is dying and I would really rather be home with him than here at work”......”My boyfriend is going through a difficult time and it is hard to not want to take it all on myself”......”I’m a recovering alcoholic and I reallly really really want a drink right now AND I am sooooo proud of myself because I have not had one and I know life will not be better for me if I do have one soooo I’m going to ask for support and continue to NOT drink.”........ REALLL REALLL life. NO bullshit, pretend life is always rosy....

THE BEAUTY.......

Blue skys FILLED with Butterflies...

RUSHING waterfalls cascading over the boulders to the sea..

HOT Natural Spring waters that flow 24/7 from the earth to the sea.... Baths for us to soak our achy bodies in...

The sound of the dideriedo, drumming and sacred singing while sleeping in the silent bath house....

GIANT BON FIRE with guitar players and singers and FIVE raccoons for entertainment...

Singing around the Piano...

Pumpkin Carving Competition....

Farm Fresh Meals prepared three times a day DAILY....

Cooperating at “Work”... in the kitchen, in the laundry, in the garden...

Meeting new CHARACTERS...

Short Fat Skinny ones, long tall ugly ones, cranky old smelly ones, Long hard sexy ones, sweet young sexy ones....... I think I’ll eat some worms......

The ART BARN....

YOGA CLASSES......

THE GYM.......

Communication Class every night from 8 to 10... INTENSE..... CHALLENGING... LEARNING... EVOCATIVE.... Regrets for past life without these skills....HOPE for a BRIGHT HEALTHY future incorporating Giraffe into my life....

I need sleep to get up and do it again.........

PURE BLISSSSS
soaking up the sun
feeling the weight of the pumpkins
being able to run FREEEEEE
climb over
sit on
roll around.....

This kids "thing" is things that spin.....
HE LOVES things that spin.....
Sense he was a little baby he has explored attempting to spin things...

LOOK AT THAT FACE.....
HAVE YOU EVER SENSE SUCH A PERFECTLY SWEET FACE???
His little chin
Perfect white skin, adorable nose, sweet sweet eyes....... OHHHHHH......

The relaxing, calming, soothing sound of corn stalks blowing in the wind....
eating Kettle corn....
NOT being lost in the corn maze for hours.

Jumping like a monkey in the bouncy house.

Feeling all the animals in the petting zoo.

He knows just how to hold his hand flat so the animals can eat out of it.

Pony ride

Sweet love
Tight HUGS
Sillyness
TRUE LOVE
SAD GOODBYES
in my HEART FOREVER
LOVE
LOVE 
LOVE

By Janet Geringer Waititz, ED.D
Dedicated to adult children of alcoholics....
HIHGLY RECOMMENDED
Simple
Basic
Straightforward......

What is a HEALTHY relationship?????
#1) I can be ME.
#2) You can be YOU
#3) We can be US.
#4) I can grow.
#5) You can grow.
#6) We can grow TOGETHER.

DUHHHH
sooo simple........and yet?????

I was not raised by alcoholics BUT both my parents Fathers were alcoholics.
Basically this book is excellent for anyone raised in a dysfunctional family.
Totally dated.. which makes is sweet.

Some of my favorite parts in the book is when she goes through the MYTH's... (for example) the Myth that "If I am involved with you I will lose me."
For each Myth she says,......
TRUTH.......... (she explains what the truth is)
In the REAL WORLD................(she explains what happens in the real world)

GOTTA LOVE IT

Another chapter I LOVED was about EXPECTATIONS.......
SHE SAYS......
Healthy relationships involve EXPECTATIONS.... 
It is a Shared commitment to FULFILL them. .. 
YOU HAVE TO TELL YOUR PARTNER what your expectations are!!! 
If you tell your partner what you want and he/she does NOT fulfill them, it needs to be talked about. 
NEEDS/ Expectations need to be expressed and discussed? don't know? Ask?

There is also a great little chapter on Incest...... 
SHE SAYS the effects of incest are more detrimental than the effects of Alcoholism.....(not that comparison is a good thing) but she points it out in an attempt to make sure those of us who have been afflicted by incest GET HELP.......THANK goodness there is sooooo much "help" in soooo many different forms available.

Long Story Short........
If you struggle with INTIMACY This is a great read.


xxoo
cg

All help getting the word out GREATLY appreciated.
PLEASE POST on bulletin boards, websites, Facebook pages etc.

THANK YOU.
cg

I am OPENING, INVITING people into my home who are wanting to WRITE, CREATE ART, Garden, Have Adventures in Nature.. People who want a sabbatical from life. THEY MUST be willing to have COURAGEOUS CONVERSATIONS, speak their truth, in a clear, honest, heart felt way.. Ask for what they need, be open and receptive to others peoples needs, clean up after themselves, work toward the good for all not just themselves, be willing to cooperate, be individuals, be themselves, take care of themselves, open to receiving help when they need it... People who want a lovely, peaceful, beautiful lifestyle, no drugs, smoking, mind altering realities, no excessive TV, be willing to be quiet when quiet is needed by others, open to LOUD music and dancing under the full moon like wild things when the mood calls for it.. REALLY LIVE, fully, openly, honestly. visit www.heavenunderthemoon.com to learn more about myself (read a bit of my blog) and see photos of My HEAVEN in New Zealand

Several ways to participate…..

Be a WOOFER (willing worker on organic farms) http://www.wwoof.org
Work 5 hours a day, 5 days a week in exchange for food and accomodation
minimum 3 days, max depends on what a great worker you are, how dependable you are and how well we work and live together. There is enough work for a LIFETIME for several workers.
The WWOOF caravan was smashed into the earth by a tree that fell... soooo until another caravan is bought, accomodation is in the art studio on Thermarests. bare bones basically but GREAT food and outdoor bath & shower. IF you prove to be compatible the possibility of moving up in heaven into your own room is a carrot.
BUILDERS are especially appreciated... IF the stage (for the outdoor amphitheater) is going to be built, gotta have one long term. Spread the word to all the builders you know that want to live in HEAVE.. I will add in a FREEEEE 2 hour massage for every week of work completed!!! Plus cocktails, wine or beer on the weekends!!!!

Chronologic Order BACKWARDS... That sums me up to a T...

Last day on the Cape we went skinny dipping in this Glacier Pond... PERFECTION
A LIVE
INVIGORATING
CLEAR, COLD, REFRESHING
SWEET
PRICELESS

One of THE hardest things is LIFE is to no longer be with the person I have been with..
After sharing CONNECTION, 
Sweetness,
OUR TRUE SELVES, 
Each and ever Soul that I LOVE, lives inside me....
AND that is NOT the same as holding them close to my heart in the physical.

I LOVE real live HUGS...
EYE to EYE contact.
The feel of a beating heart...... NEXT TO MINE.

I LOVE you sister.
What a BLESSING it was to have you all to myself for a whole WEEK.

THANK YOU
xxoo
cg

Goodbye Sweet, Beautiful Cape Cod Cottage
Thank you for your refuge
your HOMEY comfort and JOY

FRUIT LOOPS
The one and only REALLLL Autumn colors we came across on the cape.

A PERFECT day of kayaking..
 under an amazing sky..
 on calm still waters.

ADORABLE
ROMANTIC
Province Town

I would LOVE to go BACK with a BOYFRIEND.. 
sooo charming... 
Jane and I thought it was a real SHAME that one of us was not a MAN!!!!

Jane spotted this little Framed "picture" was on a fence..

BE YOURSELF
BE FULLY Yourself
Unless your a pirate
Then ALWAYS be a Pirate

A bike ride through the Dunes...
Which made me "HOME SICK" for Holland..
Rosenbottle (in english Reships, which I made jam out of in Holland), 
Sand....
Ocean in the back ground...
Blue Sky (in Holland it would have been GREY for sure!!)
The world is sooo sweet.

Our THREE HOUR TOUR

Which (luckily for us) turned into a 7 hour day!!
Picnic on the beach...
Hands washed in Rose Water....
Proseco and Lemon Chello (from the Amalfi Coast) served in colorful plastic Martini glasses on a beach towel for a table cloth...

Ballston Beach
Morning Beach walk
cycle
calm
silent
Seal pup following us
SUN
SWEETNESS
TRANQUILLITY
PEACE

Playfulness

Being Kids together

The MOST amazing Greek Yogurt in the WORLD......
Hand Made by Sophia at Sophia's Pantry near Summerville Boston Massachusetts

Drizzle Honey, Lemon Zest, Lemon Juice and ENJOY

TO DIE FOR
TO LIVE FOR
To go back to Boston for

YES... I was SPOILED ROTTEN by Jane... she made me BEAUTIFUL meals, treated me like a Queen.... Sooo sweet to be the guest. I LOVED every minute of our time together.

The GREATEST thing about Boston is having bikes to hop on and off of WHERE EVER I was......
You have 30 minuets to get to where you want to go. EXPLORE that area then get on another bike, cycle for up to 30 minutes to your next destination EXPLORE then get on another bike.

sooooooo fun. EVERY city in the world ought to have this system.
LOVED every minute of it EVEN though the Boston Drivers are NUTS, BAD BAD Drivers and the roads are total CRAP, pot holes everywhere.

MY KIND OF LIVING.

I LOVE life....
It is like a BOX OF CHOCOLATE....
You NEVER know what your going to get.....
Who would have THOUGHT I would have ended up at a BURNING MAN Decompression party in Boston with the owner of the Air B&B I stayed at.

soooooo sweet.
soooo fun.
What a WONDERFUL
Creative
Loving
NUT Jessa is!!!!
(I know... it takes one to know one!!!)
WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD.........

THAT is what I LOVE about Traveling...
Who knew when I woke up in the morning that I would be at a FLUFF FESTIVAL and a BURNING MAN DECOMPRESSION party alllllll in one day???

Thanks to Jesa for dressing me up and taking me out! 
I meet a "Game" inventor, an "INVENTOR", John from Maine..... BLASTED my ear drums out to Techno music, smiled till my jaw hurt and slept in past the start of the yoga class in the park I wanted to go to this morning.....

Loved exploring Harvard Square......
BEAUTIFUL

THRILLED to have access to Bikes throughout the city, jump on one, cycle for 30 minutes, explore, jump on another bike at a different location, cycle somewhere else, explore. PERFECTION....
Totally cool way to discover Boston.

There are pianos ALLL over the city....
Anyone can rock on up and have a play...
BRILLIANT..
They are all painted and decorated differently. all old UPRIGHTS like the one we just put outside our house and gave away for FREEEE. 
Bummer.....
We could have made it into a work of art!!!!
Tried to sell it on Craigs list for $100 bucks no one was interested!!

A TOUCH of Fall Foliage 
Autumn has just begun.
PERFECT weather

My room
The Library
INSPIRING

I highly recommend a visit to Jesa and Johns B&B
https://www.airbnb.com/users/show/37347

Write on one piece of paper... 
"We are NOTHING but dust and ashes"
 put it in your back pocket... 

Write on anther piece of paper... 
"The ENTIRE universe was created just for ME."
 put that in your other pocket.

LIVE with the knowledge of both TRUTHS.

It is Autumn.... Fall........ Nights are cool, days are warm, leaves are falling..Darkness is coming earlier.... Time to hunker down, SNUGGLE, read a GOOD book. Lay in the arms of an angel. Put on a scarf. wear WARM soxs, get out a THICK blanket, have a hot bubble bath, make a pot of soup, dip in dark bread... GO inside, drill deep, fill up the reservoirs in my heart, patch up the cracks in the dam of my soul.... REMEMBER... GIVE THANKS for the harvest of plenty, REEP the benefits of my toiling, REST long, allow PEACE to fulfill me. Soak up, TAKE IN this Autumn that is NOW, here, Today.