The end of one chapter... a START of a new one... 3 weeks at Esalen before going back “home” to NZ......
Discombobulation
Living out of my Car
NO HOME
UNKNOWN FUTURE
FEAR
EXCITEMENT
Anticipation???
Confusion
unorganization
COMPLETION
UNFINISHED bussiness
Completed bussiness
HEART ACHE
SADNESS
Excitement
HOPE
Four nights at Esalen.... I FORGOT about the 24/7 sound of the OCEAN,,, the never ending ROAR of the sea....Soooo Soothing, comforting, consitant, the sound of a clock ticking, heart beating, creek running.......I didn't even REMEMBER how much I missed it... until I heard it again.
MY PEOPLE
MY TRIBE
HY SPIRITUAL place on this earth....
Surrounded with other like minded people.....
Priorities
Stopping work each day to “CHECK IN” do a “Weather Report”, “Process” see how we are each doing? how were FEELING in our Bodies? Minds? Spirits??? Does anyone need support of any kind?? Are they tiered? need time alone? NO guessing NO making up a story?? nothing hidden behind... “HOW ARE YOU” ...”FINE” and “YOU????” It’s REALLLLLL..... “My uncle is dying and I would really rather be home with him than here at work”......”My boyfriend is going through a difficult time and it is hard to not want to take it all on myself”......”I’m a recovering alcoholic and I reallly really really want a drink right now AND I am sooooo proud of myself because I have not had one and I know life will not be better for me if I do have one soooo I’m going to ask for support and continue to NOT drink.”........ REALLL REALLL life. NO bullshit, pretend life is always rosy....
THE BEAUTY.......
Blue skys FILLED with Butterflies...
RUSHING waterfalls cascading over the boulders to the sea..
HOT Natural Spring waters that flow 24/7 from the earth to the sea.... Baths for us to soak our achy bodies in...
The sound of the dideriedo, drumming and sacred singing while sleeping in the silent bath house....
GIANT BON FIRE with guitar players and singers and FIVE raccoons for entertainment...
Singing around the Piano...
Pumpkin Carving Competition....
Farm Fresh Meals prepared three times a day DAILY....
Cooperating at “Work”... in the kitchen, in the laundry, in the garden...
Meeting new CHARACTERS...
Short Fat Skinny ones, long tall ugly ones, cranky old smelly ones, Long hard sexy ones, sweet young sexy ones....... I think I’ll eat some worms......
The ART BARN....
YOGA CLASSES......
THE GYM.......
Communication Class every night from 8 to 10... INTENSE..... CHALLENGING... LEARNING... EVOCATIVE.... Regrets for past life without these skills....HOPE for a BRIGHT HEALTHY future incorporating Giraffe into my life....
I need sleep to get up and do it again.........
Discombobulation
Living out of my Car
NO HOME
UNKNOWN FUTURE
FEAR
EXCITEMENT
Anticipation???
Confusion
unorganization
COMPLETION
UNFINISHED bussiness
Completed bussiness
HEART ACHE
SADNESS
Excitement
HOPE
Four nights at Esalen.... I FORGOT about the 24/7 sound of the OCEAN,,, the never ending ROAR of the sea....Soooo Soothing, comforting, consitant, the sound of a clock ticking, heart beating, creek running.......I didn't even REMEMBER how much I missed it... until I heard it again.
MY PEOPLE
MY TRIBE
HY SPIRITUAL place on this earth....
Surrounded with other like minded people.....
Priorities
Stopping work each day to “CHECK IN” do a “Weather Report”, “Process” see how we are each doing? how were FEELING in our Bodies? Minds? Spirits??? Does anyone need support of any kind?? Are they tiered? need time alone? NO guessing NO making up a story?? nothing hidden behind... “HOW ARE YOU” ...”FINE” and “YOU????” It’s REALLLLLL..... “My uncle is dying and I would really rather be home with him than here at work”......”My boyfriend is going through a difficult time and it is hard to not want to take it all on myself”......”I’m a recovering alcoholic and I reallly really really want a drink right now AND I am sooooo proud of myself because I have not had one and I know life will not be better for me if I do have one soooo I’m going to ask for support and continue to NOT drink.”........ REALLL REALLL life. NO bullshit, pretend life is always rosy....
THE BEAUTY.......
Blue skys FILLED with Butterflies...
RUSHING waterfalls cascading over the boulders to the sea..
HOT Natural Spring waters that flow 24/7 from the earth to the sea.... Baths for us to soak our achy bodies in...
The sound of the dideriedo, drumming and sacred singing while sleeping in the silent bath house....
GIANT BON FIRE with guitar players and singers and FIVE raccoons for entertainment...
Singing around the Piano...
Pumpkin Carving Competition....
Farm Fresh Meals prepared three times a day DAILY....
Cooperating at “Work”... in the kitchen, in the laundry, in the garden...
Meeting new CHARACTERS...
Short Fat Skinny ones, long tall ugly ones, cranky old smelly ones, Long hard sexy ones, sweet young sexy ones....... I think I’ll eat some worms......
The ART BARN....
YOGA CLASSES......
THE GYM.......
Communication Class every night from 8 to 10... INTENSE..... CHALLENGING... LEARNING... EVOCATIVE.... Regrets for past life without these skills....HOPE for a BRIGHT HEALTHY future incorporating Giraffe into my life....
I need sleep to get up and do it again.........
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