I spent the day with my daughter and Grandson (who is a TOTALY Gerber Baby!! Do you know what a Gerber Baby is??) He didn't cry, grumble or get crabby once. He laughs, smiles, drools, looks at the world with the most amazing blue eyes. He is ALREADY seven months old!! Time needs to STOP I say!!!!
I have LOTS of work which is soooo good, i love earning money, love the satisfaction of my work, love seeing my Great Nephew Jordan growing up, learning to talk, explore the world, we love having adventures together.
Life is pretty good. I would like my own home but its good to be here for Dad, I'm not home much but he appreciates the time I am here.
I spent last weekend in Monterey celebrating my oldest sisters 60th Birthday. This weekend I'm off to Harbin Hot-springs for a weekend retreat with the Human Awareness Institute.
I will go to Colorado mid October because I have never been to the state and I want to check it out???
I will go to Portland Oregon mid November for a week of learning to Blues dance.
Verrry easy to fall into life here in California.
I'm hiking with one girlfriend or another several mornings a week. go to the YMCA for my PUMP and Yoga classes.
Life is FULL, it is just NOT in my Lush GREEN Heaven which I YEARN for often.
I want to be there to plant some Kumquat Trees and I want to plant a Honey Crisp Apple Tree (I just ate one for the first time, they are MIRACLES in every bite!)
I also need to PRUNE all the trees already in the earth at my Heaven.
I made a commitment to stay for Tanners first year of life, I have five more months to go. I hope by then I will feel ready to go home to NZ.
I am 90% maybe 80% recovered from and accepting the ending of the relationship with Falco, funny, even though we were struggling in our relationship, I morn the loss of what we had, we were great partners in so many ways. We had a great history together. I'm afraid to go back to NZ where our life was shared, it is not going to be easy. BUT I'm getting closer to feeling like I will be able to deal with it. I miss my life in Holland just about as much as I miss Falco, I am NOT happy about loosing the life I had there.
I WILL live in Europe again I'm sure!! Not necessarily full time but for sure as a GYPSY. Just thinking about Monet's Garden, Paris in Spring, the Blooming Tulips and Rodadendrom in Holland, Switzerland in the Summer MAKES ME WANT TO BOOK A FLIGHT RIGHT NOW!!!!