I rebelled from the “Church” when I was 13. As an adult I explored every possible religion that interested me. I was discovering and learning what other people in the world believed?
After I had my child I got very paranoid?? When ever my daughters Father went to change her diaper or give her a bath I KNEW he would be doing something sexual to her?? Not knowing why I had these uncontrollable feelings I sought help in Therapy. I had repressed the knowledge that my brother had sexually abused me when i was in sixth grade??? From there I attempted every form of therapy imaginable to deal with the pain of having been sexually abused. I did group therapy, rapid Eye Movement Desensitization (originally at OHI), Group Radiance Breathwork/ Holotropic Breathwork, Art Therapy, Ropes Course, I was Hypnotized, I walked on fire, when I was 30 years old I cycled across the USA speaking out against Childhood Sexual Abuse?? I cant even think of everything I have done to help myself get over the negative affects of the break of trust my brothers actions caused me??
Thanks to all the work I have done on myself, the women in the meditation group I was a part of for 14 years, my courage AND a few wonderful boyfriends that helped me through the process, I have been able to have a wonderfully fulfilling life. That is not to say that from time to time something doesn't;t happen to re-open the wound, but all in all I consider myself a healthy, happy, fulfilled, THRIVING individual.
I now attend the Center For Spiritual Enlightenment in San Jose. I go when I want, I cry almost every time I go. I LOVE what I hear and how I incorporate it into my life.
I am facilitating the Artist Way at Deborahs Palm in Palo Alto which is a community for women. I love and appreciate the process.I also enjoy NATURE more than anything. I love a LUSH GREEN environment. My home is in New Zealand www.heavenunderthemoon.com I took a year sabbatical from life in 2001 and cycled around a lot of the world on my bicycle. I was specifically looking for somewhere in the world to live in NATURE. I followed my Gut, it lead me to my HEAVEN.I have been away from my home for three years now do to family and a need to be close to them. I am attempting to prepare myself to grow stronger to return to my home. Part of my reluctance to going back to my home is that I will have to face the pain of my partner no longer being with me.. After some traumatic health challenges he has decided to live his life in his hometown in Holland, without me. I believe part of my spiritual journey is to get as strong as I can, physically, emotional and spiritually before returning to my home... then to decide what I want to do with the rest of my life.