My GOALS were to attempt to learn to LET GO, RELAX, TRUST, FEEEEEEL.. BIG ASKS....and I made progress. The teachers for the four day intensive were INTENSE, verry serious, dedicated to the TRUE one and only BLUES. We learned through looking at a skeleton how the pelvis works, we learned how to move verry specific muscles we didn't even know we had. THEN, on the weekend we had many different teaches, my FAVORITE was Heidi, she taught the Story Of Blues..... She danced through her imaginary day, she work up in the morning and pulled off the covers, slid back the shower door, made her peanut butter and jelly sandwich.... THIS WAS MY KIND OF LEARNING, having fun, being playful, letting it RIP... I didn't care what I looked like or if I was doing it right, I was FEELING it and having FUN. The things I learned about myself.....I have held tight to protect myself, I have depended on myself, attempting to be supported by another is a challenge AND I want to learn how to do it so it feels effortless and enjoyable. I learned that I tend to put the weight on the outside of my foot, especially the right one??? Observing, Observing?? I learned how to FEELL how to stand up right and strong and relaxed?? I should say I was taught that and I still have a lot of practice to get there. Bending my knees is BIG, I cant have movement unless they are bent. BREATHING is BIG, Sinking DOWN, while keeping my chest open and strong, NOT a lot to ask!!! YES IT IS!!!! All New for me. It was a challenge, frustrating, confrontational. I had to dance in front of the group and get EVALUATED..... Given feedback..... Sweat Bullets I did!!! But I did it. The stress was evident, I basically had a stick up my ass AND I learned to keep my mouth shut and not criticize myself. I was told to THINK to myself, "I am beautiful" "I am beautiful" I have a lot to learn but I am doing it. I like that about myself. I see where I need to challenge myself and I am not afraid to attempt to learn. Last year it was verbal communication, (Goddess knows I am still working on it) this year it is Keeping and OPEN HEART, Letting GO, Feeling all the blessings inside my self and all that I have in my life. I am sooo appreciative that I am giving myself the TIME, MONEY and ATTENTION to do for myself what my soul needs to THRIVE. Thank the powers that be for all. www.rosecityblues.com and the SEXIEST Band that I could not keep still to. http://www.youtube.com/user/porterdavis
One morning on my walk to dance class, I passed this adorable, sexy MAN standing against this wall. I asked him if he was part of a photo shoot, he said "No, I'm just waiting for the bus" I asked him if I could take his picture, he said "yes" I couldn't believe he was waiting on a bus with a card in his hat??? I'm sure he is a model.
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AuthorSingle FIFTY Nine year YOUNG female, Mother of 41 year old daughter, GRANDMOTHER to 11 year old Tanner John, 9 year old GRANDAUGHTER Taylor Lee and LAST BUT NOT LEAST GREAT Aunt to 14 year old Jordan (I call him Buddah or Typhoon) Archives
January 2024
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